Thursday, August 25, 2005

ponder wonder.

have been pondering about what a friend told me today...

it kept ringing in my mind.

Why havn't I look at it from this point of view before?...
When he told me that, I was like... *diiinnnngg* stroke of enlightenment... (haha.. exaggerating)...
but really....

he told me that, if I could work as hard to find a solution to effectively work hard, it would be more effective then putting ever ounce, of mental and physical strength into a direct path of just working hard...

frankly, I know I've been pissing alot of people off lately...
especially in group discussions, I'll be the one that kinda clams up everybody's mood...
but actually, I'm was not really in a bad mood at that time.. I was just furrowing my eyebrowns cause I was trying to think very hard, exectly how it would be done on flash...

so don't mistake me for being in a bad mood...

had a pretty long chat with Timo...
he told me alot of things that I should change my attitude about. pessimism, cynicism, independence, teamwork and a whole lot more...
I realized that I am pretty much an independent worker, preferring to stress myself instead loading stress onto people...

but i never realized that my cynicism may actually have been hampering the conceptualization process of the entire group... maybe thats why it took so long for us to come up with a proper, strong concept...

=X

my bad.

i hate director mx
i hate director mx
i hate director mx..... but NOOOOOO.. we were taught self fufilling prophecy in ICP, thus....
i LOVE director mx
i LOVE director mx
I LOVE director mx.....

bah. I have ORANGE braces now.... pretty cool, i think they look quite nice, if not for the fact that they MIGHT change color after awhile... to a dunnowhatdahell shade...

... sigh....

having problems with everything.

... I can tell, from thise week till the end of the exams, I'll be clinging on to God again...
This is bad, but I know, I cant help it.... pretty hopeless, i feel....


bah. what wrong with my life

boohoo.

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